Two Thousand Thirteen

I always do this. I always, always do this. Start a journal/blog. Write, write, write and then stop. Then months go by.  Then I realize that months have gone by.  Then I make excuses as to why I haven't written, which goes on for a few weeks and then, like today, I finally sit down slightly determined to write something that is worth writing about.

It's 2013. Can we just think about that for a minute? Yeah, that's fucking frightening. I know it's just another year, another 12 months, another 52 weeks and all that but shit man.  I was thinking today about how I didn't make a resolution for 2013 - not that resolutions are like important in any way but they have been fun and beneficial for me the last few years. I mean, who doesn't like accomplishing goals? Fun shit.

January 2008, I vowed to never do any habit-forming, addictive drugs ever again. Best decision of my life.

January 2009, I decided to right a lot of wrongs that I did in the past.  I wrote a few people letters, I cleaned up some things, I got back into school finally and did well, while I could stand it.  Almost got my degree
complete but ended up working at the hospital and that eventually took priority over school.  Which I still don't regret.  Someday I'll finish. Or maybe I won't.  Not tripping.

January 2010, I decided to stop smoking cigarettes. Now it's been 3 years and I can't even imagine why I ever smoked them in the first place. Sure, I spent the first 3 months of quitting being disastrously sick but that  only made accomplishing that goal even better.

January 2011, I decided to lease a car. It wasn't a very thought out plan.  In fact, I wish that I would have test driven more cars because turns out, a 2011 Honda Civic isn't really as great as the old Honda Civic's from the late 90s-early 2000s.  Who would have thought? I hate my gas mileage, I hate the way it drives but I do appreciate that it gets me from place to place and if it ever breaks down, I don't have to pay for it.  Sure, I might have to cough up a couple hundred dollars every month but shit, it's worth it. Overall, good decision - no matter how rushed. Now, 2 years later, I only have 1 more year and then I get to trade it in for something else! Anything else! I will never purchase a car ever again, in life. Lease, lease, lease!

January 2012, I decided to make myself exercise 3-4 times a week. This one seemed like a real LONG shot. Me and the word exercise had never really been used in the same sentence.  Sure, I'd done my fair share of home Pilates videos while my dog  looked at me like I was insane.  I also didn't count dancing around the house like an idiot as real exercise, although, I do that a lot.  I'd never done anything diligently or routinely or even remotely on the regular.  So I gave it a shot.  I started off trying to run in the
evenings, after work.  Key word, trying.  I'm not going to lie, I am the worst runner on this planet.  This bitch can't run.  After about five minutes of continuous running, I get a cramp, my legs get hot and itchy and my head starts hurting. Not my thing.  I can run during sports, I can run away from like a murderer or something but if no one is making me, I am not running.  So I took a hint from the Nike "do what works for you" commercials and I started walking.  Brisk walking. Started off with a mile, 4 times a week. Then, slowly, I really started to enjoy it.  I found different routes to take around my neighborhood, I started walking further and for longer and now, it's one of my favorite things that I do. I walk 3.5 miles, 3-4 times  a week.  I also made a deal with myself that before I can open a beer at night, I have to do 300 crunches.  Now THAT is what I call motivation.  So for 365 days, I have done 300 crunches - that's 109,500 crunches in 2012.
I call that a fucking accomplishment.

But 2013, what do I do? How do I make myself better? A few ideas have crossed my mind - think before I speak, stop letting other drivers piss me off so much, actually like learn how to cook, travel more? Sure, I'd love to do all those things but at the same time, I don't make resolutions that I can't guarantee in some way or form. So, I've decided that this year, my resolution is to make my life into what I really want it to be.  This involves many different facets, many different decisions, some major changes and many different  things to consider. All in all, my goal is to focus on what I want, make it happen and make myself the happiest I can be.

SO THERE 2013, LET'S FUCKING DO THIS.